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I grew up with no religious training at all. My mother was Catholic, although she didn't practice it at all, so the only teaching I received on God was from her limited knowledge, which was basically "God will punish you for that!". So, I grew up with a kind of general belief in the existence of God, but no knowledge of Him, or of Jesus.

My childhood consisted of abuse (sexual & physical), alcoholic parent, violence between parents, etc. I started drugs at age 12 and continued until the age of 25. Married at 17 to a man 9 years older. He turned out to be physically abusive as well. Divorced 7 years later. Met my current husband 1984 in a bar.

My husband was raised in a Christian home, but rebelled in his teen years. However, he knew the truth and he knew we were living far from God, and would go to hell if we died without knowing Jesus. He kept telling me these things, and I kept telling him I did not want to hear it.

Our relationship was becoming worse and worse. Drinking, drugs, etc. I had become very depressed, and was diagnosed as suicidal and put on Prozac. Life was very dark, and I had begun to wonder about this Jesus stuff.

Then, in 1989, in a hospital cafeteria, when I was 9 months pregnant with my son, my father-in-law asked both my husband and I if we were ready to turn our lives over to Jesus. Although I knew very little about what this meant, I knew one thing: My life was a mess, and I was tired of living that way. I finally realized that, yes, I needed God in my life. I said yes, and prayed that Jesus would come into my heart and into my life and change me.

After that, things seemed to get much worse! My husband continued doing drugs, and I did too, for awhile. But, I had started to read my Bible, and slowly, God began to change my thinking, and somehow, to change the things that were in my heart. My husband however, decided I had become too much of a Jesus freak, and wanted nothing to do with it! Go figure!

In 1993, things came to a head. By this time I was living my life for Jesus as best I could, and praying hard for my husband. I still had no church, and no christian friends, which made it quite difficult. But, God was faithful to my prayers, and had been bringing heavy conviction to my husband's heart. He finally decided our marriage would not continue unless God was in it. He made a committment to the Lord, and after looking around a bit, we finally found a most wonderful church.

Since then, times have still been difficult, but different. God has proven Himself to be faithful and has brought us a long way. He has taught us forgiveness, healed many of the wounds from my childhood, healed our marriage, and changed our lives in ways too many to count.

God is real. Jesus is real. The Bible is true.And there is only one way to heaven. Through Jesus Christ.

Do you want to be saved? Do you want to know Jesus? It is a choice of the heart, and must come from the heart. God has no use for lip service. If you want salvation, here is a prayer you can pray, and if you can pray it from your heart, you can know that you are saved:

"Jesus, I believe you are the Son of God. I believe you came to earth and died for my sins. I believe you were resurrected and are now in heaven. I confess I am a sinner, and I need you to come into my heart, into my life, and to change me. I ask you to come, and be my Lord and Saviour. I turn my life and my heart over to You."

If you prayed this prayer in faith, and from your heart, congratulations, you are now "born-again". There are next steps for you to take now, in order to grow in faith. It is essential that you read God's Word. It is your road map. I would suggest starting in the New Testament, with the book of Matthew. You probably won't understand eveything you are reading, and that's ok. Keep reading. Before you begin to read each time, ask God to help you understand what you are reading. I promise you, He will do it. The next step is to find a church, one that teaches salvation through Christ and Christ alone. you are now a member of the "Body of Christ", His church, and you will need the support, prayer, and teaching of a group of believers.

If you have questions, or comments feel free to e-mail me.

Until next time, God bless you!